I’ve come to a point where I realized that I’ve been battling with my personal reading habits lately. Thanks to my addiction to Edelweiss (and Netgalley) and my “need” (realization: It’s not really a need AT ALL) to have & read new releases that now I’ve created quite a conundrum for myself.
Usually when I receive egalleys or ARCs, I try to read and review the book right before it’s released. My personal preference is to be able to post the review for said book within a week of the release date (preferably before, but sometimes after if I’m slammed with commitments). Recently, I just haven’t been able to keep up with the things that I’ve been requesting and guys… It’s KILLING me.
I’ve been feeling so terrible that I’ve requested so many egalleys and haven’t been able to read them before their release days. I also still have a few ARCs from the giveaway I won from Jamie back in December and I just haven’t been able to keep up with those before they’ve been released either. By not reading them and posting a review within a week of the release date, I feel like I’m letting the publisher down. I feel like they approved me for these advanced copies expecting me to help promote these books and spread the word. Is that realistic? Maybe not. I know that there’s probably an ideal date publishers would like us bloggers to post by, but it’s not mandatory. Still, my guilty conscience just eats at me and I come home every day and stare at those ARCs on my shelf… Already released… Begging me to read them… Reminding me that I’m falling behind on my “reading schedule” (which doesn’t really exist because I constantly change it)…
Because of this reading pressure (that I’ve put on myself)…
I haven’t been to the library in AGES. I just can’t. I can’t check out books that I need to finish up series or have been anxious to read because I have too many other things that I need to read on a time crunch!
I started trying to read some of the egalleys on my computer at work. OOPS, sorry work. I just need to read, read, read to try to catch up!
I haven’t been watching TV practically at all. The only time I allow myself to watch TV is when I’m hanging out with my boyfriend and we’re watching TV together or while I’m doing something else, like cleaning. Guys. I’m nine episodes behind on Grey’s Anatomy. SAD.
Don’t get me wrong — I kind of love that I’m reading more than I’m watching TV now BUT I would like to feel like if I wanted to watch TV that I could… No pressure, no sideways glances at my books as I sit there NOT reading them. Blogging is first and foremost a hobby — One that I truly love but every once in a while starts to take control of my life and I get panicked with how much reading I really need to do before specific deadlines! I had to just recently take a step back and tell myself that IT’S OKAY. I may not be cranking out these reviews before the pub date, but I do still plan to read the books I’ve requested. It just might take me a little while to get there!